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This was lovely! Thank you.
Your essay makes me understand, for the first time, what it will feel like to love *and* let go.
My son is only ten, and a curl-up-beside-you-watching-a-movie kind of ten, too. He has yet to shy away from the love his mother and I show him, but we both know he will. And when he gets past that, and accepts our love in a most adult sort of way, well, I'll just lose it.
Yeah, I'm sappy like that.
Thank you for this exceptional bit of life.
Thank you for sharing. Thank you.
Great post again, thanks Ann.
I know exactly how you feel. I remember the day we brought our daughter up to Tufts. We were so excited for her, but as we left and as soon as she was out of sight, my wife and I both had to wipe away tears. In the car heading home, neither of us could speak for quite a while, because the lumps in our throats were so big.
You took me both back and forward in time. Back to the day my dad dropped me off at college. I (and probably dad too) felt the way you described yourself - plenty of lumpy throats to go around. Yet this year my nearly 12-yr. old went to Bela Karolyi's gymnastics camp - her first time away with no family, her first time at an "away camp" so I know what you mean about the word pride not really hitting the mark. And I know with my daughter, the coming years will fly far too fast.
Two words came to mind after reading your post, the first a Greek word for love, Agape (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Agape). And the second word, one of my favorites, is bittersweet.
Katybeth -- I am so sorry for your loss. I had no idea.
Be brave!
oxox
Mostly, I'm seeing that it's his job to find his place, and mine to ensure he has the light by which to operate...even if he doesn't realize I'm there, on the fringe, holding the flashlight.
You've detailed a wonderful story, Ann, and the much needed encouragement we all need from time to time to stay the course.
Thank you...
Great post and what a milestone for you and your son! With a 9 year old and a 12 year old, I both dread and hope for a day like you described! Love reading your work!
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Sometimes, the words aren't there.. (from Annarchy): [link to post]
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Thank you for sharing your experience. My oldest boy is 14, starting high school in a month and I am beginning to see flashes of the man he's struggling to become. They are fleeting moments of maturity, sprinkled here and there amidst the normal teenage angst of his days. But I know the feeling you describe... And agree, it's not pride. When he looks at me, after an actual conversation, and tells me "thanks" just for getting it, it's hard to best that feeling. It's all the protective, consuming love you feel for your newborn--matured, tested, refined--and you know, in that moment anyway, that he's going to make it. Thanks for putting your emotions into such eloquent words :)
I often wondered what went through my parent’s minds when they shipped me off to five different universities for my interviews. The panel at St Andrews really summed it up though: I had to go up for a viva because I won a scholarship there and afterwards, my abiding memory was a question from the Master of United College.
In an intimidating oak panelled room decorated with portraits of past vice chancellors, (It was called the Hebdomader’s Room) the deans were seated round a huge polished table. The Master said, “Mr Alker, is there any reason we should be aware of, as to why your choices of potential universities are all outside a 200 mile radius of your home?”
I must have given an acceptable answer as I got the scholarship and a couple of years later, when I had closely worked with him on student matters, he told me that as head of discipline, his nightmare was not unruly students, but over-interfering parents, so having mine at the end of a six hour journey from home was a blessing!
Doesn’t sound as though your lad will be one of the former or you one of the latter!
Best wishes
Steve
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I love this motherhood piece by the wonderful Ann Handley [link to post] (@MarketingProfs)
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@DonnaPapacosta I had the same feeling as Ann Handley [link to post] dropping each son off at the dorm for univ year 1!
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Another beautiful, inspiring gift from Ann: RT @MarketingProfs: Sometimes, words just fail me: [link to post]
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Lovely. RT @MarketingProfs: Morning, everyone. Thanks for all the love on my "At a Loss for Words" post: [link to post]
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RT @hertantya: A beautiful writing on the purest form of love 1 could ever find RT @MarketingProfs:"At a Loss for Words" [link to post]
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Very touching RT @BarbAtSea: Lovely. RT @MarketingProfs: Morning, everyone. "At a Loss for Words": [link to post]
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@surtisunanto i don't even have a kid and was misty eyes when i read that damn @hertantya re: [link to post]
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@MarketingProfs think the word u r looking for may be victory. ever time my kids do something like your son is doing i feel victory for them
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@MarketingProfs great post Ann! I laughed out loud a few times thinking back to my teen years. Then I emailed it to my mom and thanked her!
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Incredible essay about parenthood RT @MarketingProfs Sometimes, words just fail me: [link to post]
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I should be completing a Status Report about my meeting today, AND, I had to thank you for so eloquently expressing the feelings that proud parents have when their child shows signs of maturity -- or is it signs of them becoming what we really wanted them to be? Or is it signs that they have responded the way WE wish we had?
Less tweeting, more blogging; please!
BARQ (Jeff)
You know I'll be calling you for a shoulder to cry on.
Love, Bethann
As my Dad often tells me about parenting - it's just the first fifty or sixty years that are hard, after that it gets easier.
Well done Ann. I've signed up for the RSS!
I just spent over a week in the endless rain with my husband's extended family. Along the way I had a private heart to heart with my days shy of 51 year old child-less brother in law about parenting. He is seriously involved with a much younger woman and is surveying his friends with the question "if it was physically possible would you have another child ...now." After much discussion and opinion sharing I finally said if you've never had a child you should, it doesn't matter how old you are. You can't imagine the love, feelings and emotions that lie dormant in you - age shouldn't matter if you are not limited physically. He looked at me amazed and said I was the first to say that- all of his friends, peers, parents with teenagers and/or younger children seemed to focus more on the "work" or the required energy and the "oh, I could never do it again." Your post puts into words what I never seem able to put into words - thanks for sharing your gift.
Yiddish is the best language. They have word that describe undescrib-able feelings.
Thanks Ann ... this is why blogs are not dead ;) Where else do we get a story that touches our hearts because it comes from the heart? It must be exciting (and slightly daunting) to be pushing your child out into the ocean of life. Of course, as we do so - with great care - we imagine our kids as small boats made of folded newspaper. Yet when they return they are seaworthy, burnished by the salt and riding the waves.
I hope I am as brave as you when my kids head off to college. Oh, and are you writing a book? You should.
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As always your writing captures the magic and emotion of the moment. Please never stop sharing. Pretty please.
Thank you. *grin*
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A must read for parents as we send our kids away to camp - [link to post]
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RT @digitaldads A must read for parents as we send our kids away to camp - [link to post]
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but ya know what? This one IS the best yet. Wow!
you write circles around everyone else.
BL